Monday, March 21, 2011

How Long Will This Take?

I hate clothes.
I tried my new clothes on. The shirts were fine on the tummy, acceptable to wear in public with a little stretching. They made my boobs look huge, as do everything else that is not a fucking hoodie. The pull-over thingie looked wrong on me because of my big boobs. And the short were too tight on my thighs... I hate this.
Someone, take them. I hate them. I'm short and they look all wrong.

I love clothes.
I love online shopping. I'm afraid someone will judge me if I go into a store. I won't go with my friends because I don't want to have to ask "Does this make me look fat?". I have to go with my mom or grandma and it doesn't work because my mom will end up fighting and it gets awkward something with grandma. Also, I can look for hours, past closing time, and not have to try a thing on.

Your view on clothes?

I just want to look/feel good in them. I can't wait for that day when I can wear skinny jeans and have a pretty gap between my thighs. When I can wear horizontal stripes and not look like I'm 11 feet wide. When I can wear a shirt that is too big and still look thin. When I can wear shorts and not be ashamed. When I can wear a bikini... oh, the list goes on.

How long will I have to wait? How long will this take?

I want to be the poster-child for petite girls. Thin. Small thighs. Small boobs. Everything small, I guess.


1 comment:

  1. I hate trying things on in shops. :/ I want to get to the point where I can just throw on anything and feel comfortable, like I look good. Instead of emptying my closet and trying on everything I own before settling on the same shirt and jeans I always wear.

    Hope you're having a good week! xoxo